Love sick… or just plain sick

Yeah, I’m just plain sick.  It turns out that I actually have the flu.  UGH!  Why do I get flu shots again?  Apparently it is just so they can poke me with needles.  I’ve had a fever over 100 degrees for the past few days.  I take medicine and it goes down and then I wake up shivering/sweater with a fever again.  My husband just left to pick up some more medicine.

The last love note I made with the sticky note has been our favorite so far.  I say “our” because we both keep passing it back and forth.  That’s the one that said, “I’m glad I picked you out” and it has been moving back and forth between his and my side of the bathroom.  Last time I went in there and didn’t see it I found it on the inside of the cabinet on a bottle of lotion.

Since I’ve been so sick the last few notes have been really simple since I haven’t been feeling very crafty.  I just used some cute sayings I found on Pinterest.  Yesterday’s note I wrote on a small card I had that is about 2″ square.   It just has a butterfly on the front and has a small blue envelope.  Inside I wrote what is on the pin below…

Source: 25.media.tumblr.com via Donna on Pinterest

 

When I got up I didn’t see it so I wondered what he did with it. Then I opened my side of the medicine cabinet and it was slid into my little plastic rectangular basket thing that I think is for pencils. It was opened and facing out so the words could be seen. I think that is his way of saying, “back at’cha”.

For today’s note I used a square note card with a grey-blue border around it. It doesn’t open up. It’s just a simple card. I wrote on it another phrase I got from pinterest… see below.

Source: etsy.com via Donna on Pinterest

Black as my heart feels

I don’t know why exactly but I’m really missing my mom these days.  She’s been gone since 2.16.2008…. and even though that’s been a few years it seems like yesterday.  I guess it’s because of Halloween and I’ve been noticing all the Halloween stuff in the store and everyone seems to have their hair dyed black.  Well, my mom had black hair and it was straight and really long…. well it was when I was younger.  Everyone tells me I look a lot like her but my hair is dark brown and not a little wavy.  So I started wondering…..  if I dyed my hair black and straightened it, would I look like she did in my memories?  Well, it’s done… I got one of those boxes of non-permanant hair color that washes out in 28 shampoos.  Now I just have to straighten it.  Hmmmm  I wonder……  will I see her again in the mirror.

Coincidentally,  I have been invited to a Halloween party at a friend’s house.  So I bought a costume and my hair will actually go with it.  I haven’t dressed up for Halloween in years and years and years.  It seems so strange but I could really use a night of fun and laughter.  I am going to do my nails too and I haven’t done that in a long time either!  Wowzers!  I hope I have fun.  I have been kinda sick (catching something) and was laying down most of yesterday feeling queezy… so hopefully that wont cause any issues for me and ruin a fun evening. 

I’ll take lots of pictures!

Overwhelmed

I feel like I just want to crawl into a ball and cry.  My friend is very sick and I can’t even be there for her now.  She was medevac’d  to Seattle and when I tried to call her room I got no answer.  I finally got in touch with someone who told me she was in surgical ICU.  I talked to her but she is very groggy.  They were giving her more blood and put stints in her heart.  She is also bleeding in her small intestines and they don’t know why yet.  I feel so bad that I can’t be there for her now.  I just keep praying for her.

I just got my wisdom teeth removed Friday so it was a bit humous to my husband to hear two stoned people talking to each other.  There has to be some kind of silver lining for somone I guess. 

Anyway, I missed my dance class today because of my oral surgery and that is a huge bummer because I have a recital coming up on May 1st.  I want to make sure I’m ready for it.  Tomorrow is a dress rehersal and make up lesson and I still won’t be able to dance tomorrow.  I might be able to go and just observe but we’ll see.  I can’t stand just sitting in bed like this.  I didn’t take my pain pill the last time because I can’t stand feeling so foggy and dizzy.  I took the motrin though.  I’m also keeping my face iced but I want to try to get some things done for the heart walk fundraiser coming up the morning of the 1st.  I got some silk flowers that were one of my mom’s favorites and I’m going to make barretts and put some on hair bands and little clips.  I got some great deals on the flowers since they were spring/Easter things.  I also need to think of something I can do to raise money for the relay for life.  I just joined that recently when I found out my uncle was diagnosed with brain cancer. 

Argh, the sky is falling the sky is falling!

the little things

I got a note today (Dec 22).  It was at work taped to the door to a cabinet where we leave messages for each other.  It was just written on plane notebook paper and had a gift certificate to barnes & noble inside.  The note said…

This gift is for you.

There is $1 for every time you listened when no one else did.  There is $1 for every time you hugged me.  There is $1 for every time you will do it again. 

Thank you.

I looked inside and the gift card was for $100!  It simply said “from your friend”.   I have no idea who it could be from. 

I am actually surprised, considering I have been so down and gloomy since my mom died.  Thinking that I helped someone else is surprising.  I wish I could help myself, hug myself maybe…  well, maybe I’ll just go to B&N. 

a wave of nostalgia

Nostalgia  nos·tal·gia
–noun
1. a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one’s life, to one’s home or homeland, or to one’s family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time: a nostalgia for his college days.
2. something that elicits or displays nostalgia.

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solstice and invisible lightning

Yesterday was June 21st, the longest day of the year.  In Alaska during the summer solstice it doesn’t get dark.  We went to the festivities down town and enjoyed walking the streets looking at the handmade goodies and watching people gorging on fattening junk and pointing at teenagers with metal barbs in their faces.  I did end up getting a soft serve ice cream cone from Fancy Freeze which was fantastic and I snapped pictures with the sun still shining bright late into the evening. 

 930 pm in Fairbanks, AK     Chalk Drawing down town

I saw my friend Gretchen there who is soon leaving me.  She’ll be driving to Nashville to meet up with our mutual friend Linda.  The brat!  

Gretchen

We went to a wedding earlier in the day for our friends Monica and Kent.  It was absolutely beautiful and HOT!!!!!  We sat through a very long ceremony in a small sweltering church…… but it was so beautiful!  They are a beautiful couple and I’m so happy for them.  The service was perfect too.  I enjoyed every minute of it (except when I had to stand repeatedly with my skirt plastered to my butt with sweat).  They were married at the Immaculate Conception catholic church which is a historic church in Fairbanks.  It is very beautiful inside.  The reception was very nice too and we had a wonderful time.  We saw so many people we hadn’t seen in so long.  Most of them friends of my husbands but it was interesting to see how many of the people knew each other through different ways.  The wife of one of my husband’s friends grew up next to another guys wife in another state.  It’s a small world.

Today it is raining, with occasional gusts of clean air being forced through my screens.  I love the smell of rain.  I don’t like thunder though or invisible lightning.  The sky is so bright you can’t see anything but a light grey misty looking sky.  We usually like to count the seconds to see how far away the storm is but you can’t see the lightning.  Only occasionally can you see the house lights flicker and nearly go out.  Fun.

My dad got remarried today.  I hear it was a nice wedding.  I can’t wait to see the pictures.  They will be here on the 15th of July so I can see them too.  I hear they are a good match…..both as ornery as the other.

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