What is true?
21 Feb 2012 1 Comment
in Personal notes Tags: cursing, direct contrast, drinking, expert medical advice, faith, God, immune system, immune system works, kids, religion, sick, sick son, smoking, submissive wives, thoughts, true, youngest son
I’m getting sick again so I’ve been more tired than normal the last few days. I don’t think it will be as bad as last time but everyone here is sniffling and sneezing. My youngest son is the most miserable. He doesn’t get sick very often but when he does he is pretty pitiful. We just had this long discussion about how your immune system works and why he feels like the longer he goes without getting sick the worse he feels when he is sick. He always gets to over-analyzing these things and then comes to me for expert medical advice LMAO Anyway, I ended up sleeping till almost 2pm and then just sat around in a daze and tryed to help my sick son. His eyes were pouring rivers and he was really confused by that. He wanted to know what that was happening and what to take to make it stop. Good thing there was no school today. I’m not sure if he will be able to go tomorrow or not. He can’t stand lights of any kind right now and closed every curtain in the house.
Well I hadn’t really thought about something to write today so I decided to go with a prompt from NaBloPoMo.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Tell us something that you believe with all your heart is true.
I believe in God and I know that he is real. I know, without a doubt that he hears my prayers. I know in the past I wasn’t so sure, especially since some of the people I grew up with, who also believed in God or even preached about God, did some things that were in direct contrast to what they were saying. When I met my husband I had decided it was all just a big lie that people used to make kids do what they wanted. I think in some cases that is actually true. Sadly, many people do use religion to control people. My mom was one of those submissive wives but I learned that not only does the bible say that wives should be submissive to their husband’s but it also goes the other way. Husband’s are to honor their wives but many [men] decide to forget about that part of the verse. How convenient.
Well, one day I was laying out on the grass in my front yard looking at the clouds and this butterfly flew over me and just hovered over my face for a few minutes. I watched it for what seemed like a long time and then watched as it fluttered around my yard and then flew off into the trees. As I looked up, following its path with my eyes, I saw the hills in the distance and how beautiful everything was. I just realized that this whole world and everything in it is amazing. Butterflies and bees are amazing to me. They help pollinate flowers and keep our ecosystem going. Our bodies are amazing too. Everything is made to work so perfectly. I think that is when I realized that God is real and just me not believing doesn’t mean he isn’t there. He always was.
I believe that God is present to different people in different ways and so even though I might share my beliefs with others I don’t expect them to change their own. I enjoy listening to other people talk about their beliefs, especially when they are so sure in them. Faith is a beautiful thing. Of course I don’t believe that God would tell someone to kill people…and themselves…. I think that is something different altogether. I don’t believe that people who don’t attend church, or who smoke, drink or swear are automatically bound for hell. I know that God is a loving God and wants people to love him but many people decide their way is right and are quick to condemn other’s who aren’t following all of their rules. The bible does say “judge not, that ye be not judged” (Matt 7:1)…. but people tend to forget that bit too.
I know that God loves me even when I don’t feel well. I know that God doesn’t cause pain but is there to help us through it. Sometimes bad things happen to people and it is easy for them to blame God but life isn’t always going to be easy for us and we grow through adversity. People will always die, because we are human, and accidents will always happen but God is always there for us in life and in death.
That is what I believe to be TRUE.
What do you believe to be true above anything else? If you don’t agree with me, that’s okay. I’d still like to know what you think.
Invictus
02 May 2011 Leave a Comment
in Personal notes, Poetry Tags: david pelzer, God, Invictus, movie, nelson mandela, painting, Poetry, Richard Paul Evans, watercolor, William Ernest Henley
I just watched a movie called Invictus which was about Nelson Mandela during the time he was the president of South Africa. It was very inspiring and I love this poem which was used in the movie. It was exactly what I needed after the day I had.
Lately I’ve been down because I am so limited because of my health. I have so many things I want to do and there are so many dreams I can no longer hope to achieve because of my limitations. I was having one of what I call my “bad days” when the fibromyalgia causes me to sleep for hours when I would normally be awake – when my family is awake. I didn’t wake up until around noon or so but I was so achy that I continued to lay in bed till after 2pm and I was very cranky. I grabbed a book that I use for times like these. It’s Help Yourself by David Pelzer. This books always makes me snap out of my pity party and get up and do something I should be doing. Well I read where he quoted another of my favorite authors, Richard Paul Evans, who wrote the Christmas Box series. It says, “It is in the darkest skies that the stars are best seen.” That gives me hope because I know this is true. So then I came out to watch the movie Invictus with my husband and was even more inspired. I got out my sketch book and watercolor paints and started working on some of my homework. I can’t help but thing that God is telling me to slow down for a reason and one thing I CAN do is draw and paint.
I am the master of my Fate………. but actually God is the Captain of my soul. I need to remember that. He does have a plan.
http://www.bartleby.com/103/7.html
| William Ernest Henley. 1849–1903 |
| 7. Invictus |
Aint – a poem
28 Feb 2010 Leave a Comment
in Poetry Tags: children, God, poem, Poetry, religion
This is a great poem. I wish I knew who wrote it!
AIN’T
He was just a little boy,
On a week’s first day.
Wandering home from Bible school,
And dawdling on the way.
He scuffed his shoes into the grass;
He even found a caterpillar.
He found a fluffy milkweed pod,
And blew out all the ‘filler.’
A bird’s nest in a tree overhead,
So wisely placed up so high.
Was just another wonder,
That caught his eager eye.
A neighbor watched his zig zag course,
And hailed him from the lawn;
Asked him where he’d been that day
And what was going on.
‘I’ve been to Bible School,’
He said and turned a piece of sod.
He picked up a wiggly worm replying,
‘I’ve learned a lot about God.’
‘M’m very fine way,’ the neighbor said,
‘for a boy to spend his time.’
‘If you’ll tell me where God is,
I’ll give you a brand new dime.’
Quick as a flash the answer came!
Nor were his accents faint.
‘I’ll give you a dollar, Mister,
If you can tell me where God ain’t.’
Author Unknown
Broken
06 Feb 2010 1 Comment
in Poetry Tags: associated content, broken, dealing with pain, disability, disabled, God, living with pain, pain, Poetry, prayer, writing
I’ve been in more pain than ever lately and it’s really taking its toll on my spirt. That’s reflected in my latest poem called “Broken” which is about living with pain or disability. It is so hard to see all the things that need to be done and not be able to help. I try and then I pay for it later. I know there are a lot of people who understand this because they also live with a disability. Working at the hospital I saw many people who struggled just to get in the door. I couldn’t imagine then how hard that must have been but now I have a bit of an idea.
House of God
21 Jun 2009 Leave a Comment
in Personal notes Tags: church, God, Journey Christian Church
I finally found a church where I feel I can really become part of a close family. It’s call Journey Christian Church. It’s not so huge that you never see the same person twice. There are a few people that go there that I know already too. It’s small and they don’t have a building yet but I’m looking forward to that time. This is such a great group of people and I’m looking forward to getting to know them all better. I took Riley today and next week he’ll probably go to the children’s church. He didn’t want to go this time but we found out that a boy from Riley’s soccer team goes.
Hope
17 Apr 2009 Leave a Comment
in music, Personal notes Tags: baby, death, faith, God, hope, hurt, loss, Sara Groves, youtube
I always have had a hard time pulling myself back up from a tragedy. It’s not easy but some people just cope better than others. Some people can hurt openly and without shame. I always forget it’s okay to hurt… it’s okay to cry. I still hurt very deeply for my mom but I hold back the tears. Not too long ago I was amazed by a friend of mine who wanted so desperately to get pregnant. She hadn’t gotten pregnant for 9 years and suddenly she was. She said she was waiting for God to decide it was time for her to be a mother. Well, I guess it wasn’t time but it was a test of strength. She went into preterm labor and the baby died shortly after. She didn’t even get to hold the baby boy she had. He was whisked off immediately and she only got to hold him after he passed away. His name was Nicholas Christian.
I cried and cried for my friend. It really broke my heart. I actually avoided talking to her because I couldn’t deal with the hurt. How selfish is that? Well when I finally got up the nerve to call her back I was shocked to listen to her cheer ME up?!?! She was talking through tears, I could tell, but she also has this emence faith that it’s impossible to explain. I wish I could have a fraction of the faith she has.
Well, if you are wondering where this came from I just read a blog of someone who must have visited my blog. She lost a baby too and it was a very sad story….. but it left me with a reminder of the HOPE my friend spoke of. My friend told me she was sure the Lord was going to give her another baby and if she had a girl she would name her “Cherish Hope” because she really does.
There is a song that makes me think of my friend and the message she was trying to get across to me. It’s called It Might be Hope by Sara Groves.
You do your work the best that you can
you put one foot in front of the other
life comes in waves and makes its demands
you hold on as well as you’re ableYou’ve been here for a long long time
But hope has a way of turning its face to you
just when you least expect it
you walk in a room
you look out a window
and something there leaves you breathless
you say to yourself
it’s been a while since I felt this
but it feels like it might be hopeIt’s hard to recall what blew out the flame
it’s been dark here since you can remember
you talk it all through to find it a name
as days go on by without numberYou’ve been here for a long long time
But hope has a way of turning its face to you
just when you least expect it
you walk in a room
you look out a window
and something there leaves you breathless
you say to yourself
it’s been a while since I felt this
but it feels like it might be hopeOne more song by Sara, Less like scars
