What is true?
21 Feb 2012 1 Comment
in Personal notes Tags: cursing, direct contrast, drinking, expert medical advice, faith, God, immune system, immune system works, kids, religion, sick, sick son, smoking, submissive wives, thoughts, true, youngest son
I’m getting sick again so I’ve been more tired than normal the last few days. I don’t think it will be as bad as last time but everyone here is sniffling and sneezing. My youngest son is the most miserable. He doesn’t get sick very often but when he does he is pretty pitiful. We just had this long discussion about how your immune system works and why he feels like the longer he goes without getting sick the worse he feels when he is sick. He always gets to over-analyzing these things and then comes to me for expert medical advice LMAO Anyway, I ended up sleeping till almost 2pm and then just sat around in a daze and tryed to help my sick son. His eyes were pouring rivers and he was really confused by that. He wanted to know what that was happening and what to take to make it stop. Good thing there was no school today. I’m not sure if he will be able to go tomorrow or not. He can’t stand lights of any kind right now and closed every curtain in the house.
Well I hadn’t really thought about something to write today so I decided to go with a prompt from NaBloPoMo.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Tell us something that you believe with all your heart is true.
I believe in God and I know that he is real. I know, without a doubt that he hears my prayers. I know in the past I wasn’t so sure, especially since some of the people I grew up with, who also believed in God or even preached about God, did some things that were in direct contrast to what they were saying. When I met my husband I had decided it was all just a big lie that people used to make kids do what they wanted. I think in some cases that is actually true. Sadly, many people do use religion to control people. My mom was one of those submissive wives but I learned that not only does the bible say that wives should be submissive to their husband’s but it also goes the other way. Husband’s are to honor their wives but many [men] decide to forget about that part of the verse. How convenient.
Well, one day I was laying out on the grass in my front yard looking at the clouds and this butterfly flew over me and just hovered over my face for a few minutes. I watched it for what seemed like a long time and then watched as it fluttered around my yard and then flew off into the trees. As I looked up, following its path with my eyes, I saw the hills in the distance and how beautiful everything was. I just realized that this whole world and everything in it is amazing. Butterflies and bees are amazing to me. They help pollinate flowers and keep our ecosystem going. Our bodies are amazing too. Everything is made to work so perfectly. I think that is when I realized that God is real and just me not believing doesn’t mean he isn’t there. He always was.
I believe that God is present to different people in different ways and so even though I might share my beliefs with others I don’t expect them to change their own. I enjoy listening to other people talk about their beliefs, especially when they are so sure in them. Faith is a beautiful thing. Of course I don’t believe that God would tell someone to kill people…and themselves…. I think that is something different altogether. I don’t believe that people who don’t attend church, or who smoke, drink or swear are automatically bound for hell. I know that God is a loving God and wants people to love him but many people decide their way is right and are quick to condemn other’s who aren’t following all of their rules. The bible does say “judge not, that ye be not judged” (Matt 7:1)…. but people tend to forget that bit too.
I know that God loves me even when I don’t feel well. I know that God doesn’t cause pain but is there to help us through it. Sometimes bad things happen to people and it is easy for them to blame God but life isn’t always going to be easy for us and we grow through adversity. People will always die, because we are human, and accidents will always happen but God is always there for us in life and in death.
That is what I believe to be TRUE.
What do you believe to be true above anything else? If you don’t agree with me, that’s okay. I’d still like to know what you think.
Sicker than a dog
09 Feb 2012 1 Comment
in Personal notes Tags: dog, flu, sick
I was in bed all day with a fever. I didn’t do anything productive at all. I am so miserable. I was wondering though… why do people say, “sicker than a dog”? My dog is never sick, unless you count the times she ate poop. That is pretty sick but by a different definition. I used to have a book that explained common sayings like that but it didn’t include this one. I’ll have to look it up.
So much for the love notes. I’ll do better next year. Hopefully I won’t be sick next February. I did make a card but I decided it would be perfect for Valentines Day. So I’m going to hang on to that one. For now I’m just going to rest and try to get better.
Love sick… or just plain sick
06 Feb 2012 6 Comments
in Personal notes Tags: cute sayings, flu, flu shots, friends, medicine cabinet, needles, pinterest, rectangular basket, senile, sick, sticky note
Yeah, I’m just plain sick. It turns out that I actually have the flu. UGH! Why do I get flu shots again? Apparently it is just so they can poke me with needles. I’ve had a fever over 100 degrees for the past few days. I take medicine and it goes down and then I wake up shivering/sweater with a fever again. My husband just left to pick up some more medicine.
The last love note I made with the sticky note has been our favorite so far. I say “our” because we both keep passing it back and forth. That’s the one that said, “I’m glad I picked you out” and it has been moving back and forth between his and my side of the bathroom. Last time I went in there and didn’t see it I found it on the inside of the cabinet on a bottle of lotion.
Since I’ve been so sick the last few notes have been really simple since I haven’t been feeling very crafty. I just used some cute sayings I found on Pinterest. Yesterday’s note I wrote on a small card I had that is about 2″ square. It just has a butterfly on the front and has a small blue envelope. Inside I wrote what is on the pin below…
Source: 25.media.tumblr.com via Donna on Pinterest
When I got up I didn’t see it so I wondered what he did with it. Then I opened my side of the medicine cabinet and it was slid into my little plastic rectangular basket thing that I think is for pencils. It was opened and facing out so the words could be seen. I think that is his way of saying, “back at’cha”.
For today’s note I used a square note card with a grey-blue border around it. It doesn’t open up. It’s just a simple card. I wrote on it another phrase I got from pinterest… see below.
Tummy not feel so good
07 Nov 2011 6 Comments
in Knitting Tags: george carlin, knitting, pictures, sick
*pout* I am really sick to my stomach and I am starting to think it’s not the flu now… It feels like it did before when I had an ulcer…. although, that time I waited too long to see the doctor. This time I still have meds from the time before and remember the drill. No more tomato soup or my favorite ruby red grapefruit with sea salt. Rice, mashed potatoes, cornflakes and bananas…..oh my! I took Protonix this morning AND Claritin and now I am REALLY ”Sick and tired” like George Carlin.
So yesterday, since I was in bed most of the day, the only creative thing I did was knit and today I think I’ll continue knitting. It will take me a long time to finish the front of my sweater. I’ll post a picture of how far I got later tonight. My hands are not hurting yet so I think I’ll do pretty good. A picture of the back of the sweater is in yesterday’s post.
I did take this picture of myself with my black hair that is not straight like my moms. I feel a bit like Rapunsel.
Me with black hair
For better or for worse
03 Nov 2011 2 Comments
in Personal notes Tags: daycare, kids, sick, zombies
Well, I’m getting better. I just have this nasty sore throat but otherwise I’m feeling better! Riley went to school today so he’s feeling better too but Jared stayed home sick. I didn’t even know he was here until a little while ago. I was sitting on the couch working on something in my quiet little house thinking I was completely alone when I hear this cough. I will tell you….That is very unsettling. Then, out of the bedroom comes this zombie staggering to the bathroom and scratching his butt. I said, “Why didn’t you go to school today?” and the zombie said “I…. mumble mumble…..cough cough!” So I gave it some medicine and sent it back to bed.
Riley will be home soon and can take care of all the chores like his brother did yesterday. Oh wait, the zombie actually took out the trash! He must have been on autopilot.
So, I’ve been thinking about starting a daycare. I used to watch kids when my kids were little because I couldn’t stand to let someone else take care of my babies. So I added to my horde and we had some great times playing at parks and painting and making all kinds of art! Then, after my oldest started school and my Ry guy started preschool I wanted to get out and get a job. I loved working! I was the queen of Michael’s arts and crafts customer service desk. I ran the front end and supervised the other cashiers (sometimes helping them count LOL) and was comforted knowing my kiddo’s were just around the corner. Then, as they grew up and so did I, I moved on to various other jobs. I worked at a bank in the mortgage loan department as a receptionist and finally as a loan processor until I realized I was in the wrong place. I went to school to be a CNA (nurses aid) and got a job at the hospital as an endo tech where they do scopes on people. That was the coolest job in the world for me. I worked in the OR a little bit too and I was just in awe at seeing the insides of things and really understanding how the body works and in some cases helping the doctors fix it. Then tragedy struck….. I’ve always wanted to say that. It sounds so dramatic. Well, it wasn’t really like that….. it was rather sneaky. I started feeling bad gradually. Finally it got to the point were I was in so much pain I was worried about making mistakes at work and I didn’t want to be responsible for letting someone fall or messing up their test results. I was out on medical leave for a long time and saw a slew of doctors. Finally, a doctor said I have fibromyalgia and OA (osteo-arthritis)…… and that I wont ever get better. And on top of that I’m very sensitive to medicines so I have bad reactions to them and usually can’t handle a high enough dose to do any good. Most medicines make me sleep all day and I’d rather deal with pain then sleep my life away. So I quit my job and I’ve been at home ever since. I’ve been looking for a job where I can do desk work but so far nothing has panned out. No one wants me *sob*
Well, my regular doctor finally came up with some medications that help a lot and come in a low enough dose that I can stay awake. I actually feel normal and as long as I’m not doing anything too strenuous I don’t have bad pain. It’s also not something that makes me impaired so I can drive. So now my main concern is dealing with the sleeping issues. Sometimes I can’t sleep at night and I get my days and nights mixed up. I think I can figure that out though….
I’ve always wanted to help people. So I don’t want to just watch children I want to be able to help families who may not have the money for the crazy prices that daycare’s charge or maybe help take care of a child with some physical or learning disabilities. I did some calling around back in September and found out that there is training available for that. I have the application to be an approved provider for the state of Alaska and I have it filled out ready to go except for my “disaster preparedness plan”. That kind of stumped me. It says I have to cover all types of emergencies including ….. well events that don’t happen here. So what do I say I’m going to do if a tsunami strikes when I live nowhere near the ocean? What does anyone do for that matter. A mud slide? Where is the mud going to come from? The ground is pretty flat here. I’m not really that close to a river so if it flooded it probably wouldn’t get to me. We get some earthquakes and power outages (which can be bad because of the extreme temperatures). So…. I have to give this some thought and get it sent in so they can do the background checks and find out we are not the Mansons.
Black and Blue
30 Oct 2011 1 Comment
in Personal notes, Photos Tags: costume, halloween, husband, minnie mouse, party, sick
Me and my knight in shining armor
I did go to the Halloween party last night and had a lot of fun. I did straighten my very black hair but my hubby didn’t like it so I added a little curl back in for the party. I was still feeling a little queezy so I sipped water all night and a little decaffeinated, diet pepsi that I brought.I tried not to eat too much junk food but some stuff was too hilarious not to try. I had to have a little kitty litter cake and some of the other goodies there but I was smart enough to stay away from anything gummy which tends to be soaked in booze at parties. I was feeling nauseated enough already! Besides, my doctor would have a fit if I had vodka while on pain killers. I’m not even supposed to have caffeine so no booze.
The greeter.... not real but very spooky!
These guys really went all out decorating for the party. Every time someone went downstairs to the bathroom we would hear a screem. Eventually, of course, it was my turn to go and there was blood splattered across the bathroom mirror 
and across the whole bathroom and inside the tub. It looked like someone was murdered in there. There was a black light in there and when you turned on the light switch the light bulbs were black and glowed a dim purple. So it was very hard to see. I closed the door to use the restoom and
These guys were really clowning around
when I reached for the toilet paper I nearly had a heart attach! There, behind the door, standing on something like he was about to pounce down was a MAN (well not a real man – but it looked like it) in flannel shirt and jeans with a spooky mask and holding up a meat clever! After I finally got my heart back into my chest and figured out how to wash my hands in the barely lit bathroom I went out and looked around some more. The bedroom on one side had a man (fill sized man) hanging from a noose in the center of the room and on the other side was a crime scene. The mattress was off the bed and on the floor below the wrought iron bed frame was a taped outline where the bodies had been found LOL They did such a great job and it looked like the made everything on their own.
I had a lot of fun talking with friends I haven’t seen in a while and taking pictures of everyone’s costumes. Some people put on quite a show dancing :O) I wish my pictures turned out better but it was too dark in there and they had a fog machine going.
A pirate and her world series of poker player
When we left to go home I got cold and since I have fibromyaglia I knew that would cause trouble for me later. It was 10 degrees last night and snowing. I drove so my hubby get have some drinks with his buddies. I barely got home and out of my costume (thank God!) before I got sick! I must have eaten too many sweets for my sick stomach. Then I couldn’t get warm no matter how many blankets I piled on me. I really didn’t hurt that bad but I was shivering and I had to get my heating pad to try to
Captain America and Peggy his love
warm myself up. I ended up staying in bed nearly all day today eating only corn flakes and bananas. My sweet hubby went to the store for more corn flakes and bananas and brought me back some warm dark pink and black Minnie mouse pj’s and matching fuzzy socks. He knows how I love cute pj’s! Oh, and I have to add to show how really sweet he is, the socks didn’t come with the pajamas. He actually went to the sock department and picked out fuzzy pink socks with pom-pom’s that exactly match the dark pink in the pajamas. There was also a chocolate bar for after I started feeling better. How sweet is that?
The funny thing is this sickness actually started at the doctor’s office on Friday. While I was in the waiting room I started to feel queezy and moved quickly to the seat next to a garbage can. When I talked to the doctor she just said there was something going around… just a bug. “Bug has a bug” my husband said…… he calls me “Bug”.
The doctor is in!
I have a new doctor now (not the one in the picture LOL). My doctor changed over to the walk in clinic. I wasn’t very happy about that but this doctor seems good. She may even be a little bit better! She was very thorough! Before I left she handed me a patient assessment summary page. It listed out her “assessment” for the visit and all of her advice to me. It also included a complete list of my medications and how they should be taken. Usually I forget all that stuff before I get out the door so that is really handy! Another bonus, she
Some Egyptians that were very good at dancing
wasn’t really weird, have large curd sized dandruff or pick her ears with the end of her pen. Good doctors are hard to find.
The doctor's wife - the chef! (who didn't bring any pasta)
Our hosts- the Munsters
Sick and Tired
10 Mar 2011 Leave a Comment
in Personal notes, Quotes, Reading Tags: book, book review, cold, Don Juan, Guardian, nicholas sparks, Quote, Reading, sick, tired
“A day without sunshine is like, you know, night.”
― Steve Martin
I love Steve Martin. No matter how bad I feel I can never NOT laugh at Steve Martin.
I woke up a little while ago and looked at my phone to see what time it was. It’s Thursday! I have been sick with a nasty cold that turned me into a errupting volcanic snot ball with running eyes and a throat that feels like it’s been ran through a sander… for almost a week! I had stuff to do this week! All I’ve done is take cold medicine like it was whiskey, blow my brains out on TP, and sleep like sleeping ugly turned Zombie. Don’t let me understate how bad I feel.
So, since I was awake and lucid for the first time in a week I decided to read my book. I’m still reading The Guardian by Nicholas Sparks. Chapter 14 Mike/Julie/Richard- now how is THAT going to work? Mike’s the gool ol’ guy that everyone loves and Richard is Don Juan. Okay, so I get the since that Richard (aka DJ) is about to snap and kill everyone in town but I’m sure Julie’s Dog, a Great Dane named Singer, will save Julie. Mike, though, will probably be found with a “Z” sliced into his chest. Wait, maybe I should just read the book!
Well, I’m momentarily feeling better although it may just be the whiskey, I mean cold medicine. hic…
Comfort colors?
30 Oct 2009 1 Comment
in Personal notes Tags: color, comfort, green, sage, sick
Is there such a thing? I know there are comfort foods but colors?
I have been sick for a while now but I was having an especially painful day today. I finally got to the point where I couldn’t stand it any longer and took some pain medication. As I laid on the couch waiting for it to kick in my eyes caught the ragged waist band of my sage green lounge pants. The elastic could be seen in a few areas and although I know most people would throw them out my thought was actually, “how can I fix that?”. These pants are always the thing I look for when I’m not feeling well. Well, then I noticed that my shirt was a newer-not-so-washed shade of the same color…..and as I looked around I noticed my blanket, and my couch and even my curtains and area rug in my living room are the same color. It makes since to me that if sage green equals comfort to me that my couches and other things in my livingroom where I live to be comfortable would be that color…. and my blanket that I like to snuggle with when I don’t feel well of course needs to be that color. The curtains, well I guess they had to go with the couch. I’m just glad my mashed potatoes aren’t that color.
Is it just me or do other people have a comfort color?
No news is not always good news
28 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
in Personal notes Tags: blessings, sick
I went to the doctor again for the umpteenth time and again…..a big fat nothing. The most recent tests I did also came back perfectly normal. So STILL no clue as to what is causing my abdominal pain although my stomach is getting more and more upset. Ever since this started I have been only able to eat bland foods. I would have some lightly flavored yogurt for breakfast and then white rice was the only other thing I wanted. I have eaten boxes of white rice. This past week it got a lot worse. I’ve had bad heartburn and no appetite at all. I went several days without eating anything but a few crackers. I was so tired and weak that I slept most of the time. When I would try to take a few bites of something to try to get my energy up I noticed that the pain I’ve been having would suddenly start hurting worse a while after I ate it. Then last night I woke up dry heaving. Every time I layed back down it would start again and I would have to rush for the bathroom, only I didn’t have anything in my stomach to throw up. So, today the doctor prescribed me something for my stomach and got me an appointment with a surgeon for an assessment. She said they might want to do an EGD (scope into the stomach). She faxed all of my info to him (all of which says I’m perfectly fine only in severe pain). Anyway, I guess I have some hope from that. I have to count my blessings; Things could be worse.
Odds and ends
20 Oct 2009 1 Comment
in Charity/volunteer work, Crochet, Personal notes Tags: crochet, Project Linus, sick
So I need to update. The surgeon didn’t find anything they would help with. They did blood work and everything came back normal. So I went to another doctor, my regular doctor. She’s the one that knew my appendix was screwed up years back even though the tests didn’t show it. So she ordered a bunch of lab work and x-rays. I even did them at her clinic instead of the hosptial (which would have saved money) because she would get the results sooner. So that was one week ago now. My appointment is at 10:30 am (Tuesday). If they don’t know what’s going on I’m going to cry. I haven’t been out of my house except to go to the doctor appointments and my husband has to take me everywhere because it hurts all the time. I’m already decided on a next route though. I’m going to see a female internist I work with to see about a colonoscopy. My mom had bad ulcerative colitis and I think the pains I’m having are in the area of my large intestine (pretty much all of it). So if this other doctor waited a week to tell me zip then I’m going to the internist or the ER….. whichever comes first. Sometimes I’m doing okay (usually first thing in the am) and then it starts building. I can only take it for so long. It’s like a migraine that makes you want to slam your head into a wall after 3 days of it.
Oh, and on top of all of this I found out that a friend of mine was killed in a motercycle accident a few months ago and I didn’t even know until I went to her facebook page to leave her a note. Some friend I am huh? She was a great friend and I really miss her. I do feel sorry for the poor young guy who hit her because he will have to live with that.
Anyway, that’s enough depressing stuff. I’m keeping myself busy by crocheting. I finished a blanket for Project Linus. I sewed Project Linus tags on some other blankets that were donated and my husband delievered 15 to pediatrics. He said the nurses were so glad to get them. I’m glad. Now I’m working on another blanket for a co-worker’s baby. She’s due soon so I’m hoping to get it finished in time. If not, she’ll get it later than sooner. I have found that if I fall asleep when I’m crocheting something it doesn’t get all messed up like knitting does. If I take pain meds I will fall asleep sooner or later.
Okay, cross your fingers and say some prayers. I need some answers.
