I think I need to go back to bed and try this day again. I’ve been fighting an awful cold but I haven’t been as moody as I’ve been today. Riley and I are really not getting along today. He feels like I’ve “been on him” all day. I feel like he hasn’t been listening to me for 13 years but today is just another day. I think it’s me. I think I am a bit quicker to snap today than usual. I don’t want to stay in my room anymore since I”ve been in there most of the day. I’ve been sleeping so much and I want to be awake and do things. I just want to listen to music without someone trying to change things on me. The kids have both retreated now and I feel bad. I feel like a spoiled child who got their way and I’m the adult in the group.
I feel angry inside and I don’t know why. I don’t have anything to feel angry about. I guess I feel isolated. Maybe I’ve been home too long. I miss people. I miss working and going to church. I miss my family and especially my mom. I’m lonely…. I need to get better and go back to work.