This is the fifth Christmas without you and it is so hard to not be able to hug you and tell you how much I love you. I want to make you a beautiful shawl in the softest red yarn. I know how you love red. I want to give you a dozen red roses mixed with a dozen white roses because you deserve the best. I wish I could have you over for Christmas dinner and sing Christmas songs with you. But of course, I can’t. I can’t do any of those things.
I bought an Amaryllis and planted it in memory of you. Every year since you’ve been gone I have gotten so sad when I saw those flowers in the stores at Christmas time because I know they were your favorite. This year I decided to get one and it is tall and ready to open soon. I know you can’t be here when it opens but I will be thinking of you.
Oh, and mama, a horrible thing happened today and a bunch of innocent little children have gone to heaven along with some of those that cared for them at school. Please hug each one and sooth their spirit. I know you would be the best angel to guide them home.